Almost don't know how to describe today. Right now I feel very energised and relaxed as I did make it to my weekly pilates class - however at 6pm tonight I was drinking Baileys on ice - two glasses. My husband did point out to me that this was perhaps beyond the acceptable limit for a pregnant woman ... however he didn't push it - he could see the look on my face.
You know you have had a tough day when the 7 year old says you look tired, and the 3 year old says its okay for you to go to bed now ... at 5.30pm.
Having said that, I had the most lovely catch up with a girlfriend visiting Queensland from Melbourne. It just involved 1 1/2 hours driving to Coolum and then 1 1/2 hours back. With three children and only one adult. It involved packing morning and afternoon teas and lunch. Packing beach gear including sand toys, googles, hats, sunscreen etc. And baby bottle, sleep suit, port-a-cot ....
(View from girlfriend's apartment at Coolum Beach)
However, gorgeous E (the 1 1/2 year old) slept for 3 hours happily in the port-a-cot at the apartment - so this was good.
T (the 7 year old) had a great time playing with his friends in the games room as well as boogie boarding and general mucking around on the beach.
W (the 3 year old) had a massive meltdown tantrum from the beach back to the apartment for about an hour.
So two out of three ain't bad, as Meatloaf cried.
For the car ride home I resorted to 1 1/2 ours of Pingu on the iPad - it saved all our sanity I think.
The 3 year old tantrums are massive - that boy does nothing in half measures. I am seriously considering getting external help. My gorgeous girlfriend (who has a 6 and 7 year old so has SO graduated the baby and toddler phase) did think it was actually 'normal' and due to tiredness. It was certainly due to tiredness but 'normal'? I just don't know. T never had anything like it and I have never witnessed in another child. Shrugs. This shall be the subject of a separate blog entry I think.
On the note of the gorgeous girlfriend.... I was definitely jealous. Just thinking how much tougher I have made life for myself have four (!) children. Am I crazy? Two looks so cruisy. She even got to sunbake at the beach. On her stomach. With her eyes closed.
And she has a real job - a wonderful career job where she manages staff and goes to week long professional development courses, and travels. And can have a cup of tea without it going cold. And gets to wear real clothes with makeup. Everyday.
It is just makes me question myself and my decisions. Especially after my tough day at my 'office'.
Yup will be meditating tonight to shut the thoughts out.Labels: Large Family, Meditation, Stay at home mum
