It feels like labour - back ache, contraction like cramps and it goes on all day.
I had it for weeks with E and it is debilitating. Real labour is a doddle as by the time I realized that finally it wasn't pre labour any more, it was an hour till I was holding him.
It is brought on totally by fatigue, physical fatigue. And I had it all day Monday. I am just 31 weeks. Crikey.
So I need to slow down. Given I feel like I can't get much physically slower (all I'm doing is Pilates once a week) this seems impossible, but when I really analyze my day I realize I am way more on the go physically than I was with number 1, T.
So for next 9 weeks I am going to let some of my already short listed priorities go. Specifically things that require lifting kids in and out of car, going up and down stairs, etc. It means relying more on the au pair, and D.
Priorities that can stay include hone play w E and W, piano and learning with T and resting when I can. New priorities to include indoor games with Tom, reading more books and doing computer work - all not too physical.
The perfect mother voice yells that I am copping out. She can make me feel really awful that woman.
I am the furthest from that über super mother stereotype that I can imagine.
My faults are:
I have an au pair.
I have an untidy and often unclean house even with au pair.
I don't have a career even with au pair.
I don't organize my days in advance.
I expect 50:50 support from my husband for child raising and house stuff even with au pair.
I bake rarely and rarely make play dough.
I don't do craft.
So you see no external critic knows more about what I'm doing wrong.
That fact gives me at least one up on them.
And in the meantime I will do or not do whatever it takes to not have those dreadful pre labour days. So there.Labels: pregnancy, super mum